If you ask me how Im feeling right now, I'd say.. nah, I wouldnt have an answer to that. Cause I dont know my self. I just feel.. hmm.. empty ? and I dont know. Maybe Im loosing my grip. Maybe I got off the track without realising. Maybe Ive forgotten why Im here in the first place. I keep crying when I think about home. I keep crying by myself. It's like I'm totally losing it.. I need to help myself.

I have to.

Someone said to me,

stop nangis. awk yang nak pergi belajar sana sgt. sabar lah.

it was one straight shot. through the heart. Made me realised a bit. That I need to remind myself the reason why I came here. I need to find Allah. I need Him to guide me. I need him to give me strength. I need أHim, and nobody else.

I have forgotten


that only He could help

a hopeless
lost
hamba

like me.

♥ Reading every line i wrote,
understanding every lil meaning behind them,
even if you deny,
i really appreciate that
thanks for the attention
i am

touched-

xoxo

p.s : Entries' time shown are all Singapore time. ayte (: