[i'm in my 'dear, diary' mood so yeah]

dear diary,

[hahahahaha! ] i read siswand's blog. and i so envy him please. how he could really put everything so nicely in nice words and very oh meaningful and not being nonsensical and absurd. like me. oh shucks. What have i been doing all this time? what have i done? oh shoots. how i am so ashamed of myself. if yai is still around. he would surely feel so ashamed and not proud of me. i know. i just know. disappointed. yes that's the word. i feel so useless and bargh. talk about my yai, now i feel so sad. shoots. i hate this feeling. i just miss him so much. eventhough he has left us for almost three years. i always feel like it was only yesterday he-. i cant continue. dont make me. please.
oh let's move on, i went cycling around my hometown, Hougang, with my brother. cool ker aper (: while my sisters helped my mother make roti boyan at home. boring ker aper~ hahaha. it was nice spending sometime with him. crazy. i know. hah. just came home a few minutes ago. and i'm waiting for silat buddies to turn up. i want latihan please. watching them latihan yesterday was kinda gerek. and i miss latihan. so much.
oh how i love today. it's just.... different and nice (:
hahahahahahahahahhah
ohkeh. I'm done ranting.

bye